I just don't know.

I have 3 days off of work. Well, maybe. I'm still an "on-call" for my other job, but have been unreliable lately. Anyway, I have these 3 days and its Memorial Day weekend. Most would be super happy about this. I should be happy about this. So why am I so worried. Just can't seem to relax. Which is beyond irritating. The fear of not being able to take care of things and myself is aweful. I hate you adulthood. We don't even have a place of our own, and still, we struggle. Going back to college was something that I never seriously considered doing. It was only something to be said when being grilled and scolded by pesky family members. I think its time to go back. Just like Jack said. "We have to go back!". Alright alright, there was my transition to talk about Lost. I will miss that show dearly and will continue to watch it for years to come. Well then; I think this will be it for now.

Yeah, this is happening.

Yummers.

Ever so tired.

It has been a wack-o bonkers month so far. It feels as though I've been on auto-pilot this whole time. It isn't so bad really. Working a lot means more money, right? Eh, whatevs. All I know is that I am exhausted. I just want some time to work on stuff I actually enjoy doing. Music, sewing, reading, and just lazying around the house a bit. I know things are gonna slow down at work soon and I'll be begging to work.
In the meantime, I intend to spend this Sunday watching the Blackhawks game, working on music, start a sewing project, and of course, Lost. The season finale. I'm wayyyyy excited! It is insane how many hours one can put into a tv show, but its just so fun. It almost makes me sad to know its gonna be over in less than 24 hours. Yet, I am dying to know what this was all for!! What will happen to Jack now that he's the protector of the Island!? Will he be alone? Will he even succeed in defeating the man in black??!! Surely he will. He must! Gah! I can't wait ^.^

Mom Day.

To be quite honest, I mostly dread this day. My mom died when I was 5, and she herself was very young. So its just another day to me. Although, I still have 1 grandma left and I lived with her for a year or two. Not to mention my awesome mother-in-law. She's pretty cool as well. Still, I am sad.

This is weird.

I don't know why I'm doing this. I should be sleeping.

Mind Bullets.

How shall I start? Had a long, but productive day at work. I suppose I'm super lucky to be able to work with such lovely people. I sense change very soon. Which makes me uneasy, but it will be fine. I'm just so happy to be home now. Although, I've got a bit of a headache at the moment. I'm sure its because I'm having the hardest time with a song right now. I am not good with words, so writing songs is not my thing. Everything I've made so far has been so juvenile and silly. Then again, most songs seem to be just that anyway. I'm just going to do what I always do. I just get tired of reminding myself that this is fun. It is fun and I truly believe it, it just sucks when you are doing it and all that you want to do is rest from your long day at work. I shall conquer this song! Ugh, and I've still got to come up witgh band name suggestions. ~.~ Alright, that is all for now. I've only got an hour left to work on this in peace.